Friday, July 13, 2007

start from empty

I said to a friend today when i get writer's block or can't think of what to write about, i write about not being able to write. its always loosens something up. shakes some sort of idea out of my head while ruminating on the absence of ideas.

Sine i'm starting with nothing, it somehow allows me to just make statements. things i wish were true about me or the world around me. Let's explore this process.

I got nothing. Nothing. Nothing. A teacher once said to me "I think you're afraid to look inside because you're afraid nothing is there." Of course this statement exploded my 19 or 20 year old head. Now i think its the opposite. I'm afraid to open up cuz i know its so much in there.

It seems to be the situation in New York. It can be very hard to stay sane and balanced with the overwhelming energy of this city. There's a lot of tunnel vision going on around me. Especially when i feel like i'm trying to get people to care about coming to a live show. There's so much to do here that there's nothing to do here. People have to block out all the options. You have to have that tunnel. "No thanks...I Tivo'd Desperate Housewives." Its very hard to get people to do something outside their own routine. So the days become the same.

What i love about new york is that its a city fll of people that mostly feel lonely. The biggest city in the most powerful country in the world and not a lot of people know each other. I'm always amazed at mysel in that respect. I try to keep contact with friends. But i get stressed about spending my free time doing something that i usually decide to just sit and stare or sleep. I live in the same city, in some cases the same neighborhood as people i care about, and still it take me months to return phone calls. Pitiful.

Its one of the only citys where friendships start to become burdens. That attitude of "aw man I really need to call so and so but i'm afraid they'll be angry with me because of my lack of contact so i'll put it off until later." On and on until connection is lost.

SIDETRACKED
Just heard one of my favorite bands' music in a Reese's commercial.
Chromeo "Needy Girl"
Part of me feels like the song has been cheapened since its in a commercial. The other part is happy that they're getting some money so they can keep doing music and touring. I've been in commercials myself, who am I to judge?

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Anonymous said...

He's baaack.

Constance X said...

... I think "Bay-Ron" sunglasses'll be bigger than the iPhone.

Writer's block: Go ahead and open up Bay-Ron-Dor-ra-Man's box. There will be a huge hurricane of fury at first, but then you can get down to the good stuff.

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